PANG! SQUIRT! POOF!

your warmth embraced every inch of me. it was a cold blistering night and cuddling next to you felt so good. i didnt wanna leave, but i had to. i had other obligations to meet. so with reluctance i gently pushed your arm aside, sat up and stretched. one arm to the left, and the other to the right. as i lifted my right one, the fan oscillating at the speed of five hit the back of my hand. a strange feeling took over. my hand went numb and it felt like it was never a part of my body. you woke up to the sound of the blade hitting my hand and switched the light on. it was then i noticed the thick crimson liquid trickling down my pinky. the cut looked deep with black stain circling it. startled, i jumped from my bunk and into the toilet. i washed the stain away. the water was lightly coloured with the crimson liquid that was continuously trickling from the cut. for a good 30 seconds i bled. my vision slowly blurred. before i knew it, a black canvas covered me. i knew that i was passing out, as i could hear you calling out for me, telling me to hold on. i was tempted to go deeper into the black hole, but my mind resisted. it was so much easier to fall and lose myself. but i could feel you holding me tight, not wanting me to delve deeper into the darkness. the ongoing battle between the mind and the body tired me. cold sweat secreted from every pore. finally, my mind gave a little shove and my body surrendered. i slowly regained consciousness. the blurred outline of your face sharpened with every second. i could make out that your fear-stricken face was replaced with a relieved one. i gave a little smile to show you that i was alright. you gave me a tight hug and whispered, 'don't you ever leave me.' i nodded.

me, a die-hard disney fan?

i was on a disney frenzy the past couple of weeks. started watching every disney cartoon that has a pretty girl and a pretty boy in it. so that would be little mermaid, sleeping beauty, cinderella, mulan, and aladdin. i didn't watch snow white because it bores the bones out of me. since it took a while for the movies to stream, i'd let it load, go to class, come back, make myself a cup of milo, and unleash the budak kecik in me. i'd squeal in delight when i watch my favourite scenes, especially the one in sleeping beauty where the fairy godmothers prepare a small party for aurora who's turning sixteen. the pink and blue sparks shooting out from flora's and merryweather's wands got me all excited and i'd bob my head to the song. another favourite scene is from cinderella, where her fairy godma gave her a makeover. beepity-boppity-boo! pumpkin turns to a beautiful carriage, mice into horses, and cinderella into a gorgeous maiden. come to think of it, i really miss my childhood years. i didn't have to worry about anything and i can wear dresses with pretty lace trimmings everyday. and i wouldn't be judged for watching cartoons. seriously, whoever who says cartoons are childish is a total nitwit.