mushymushylove

i used to loathe lovey dovey people. they would send messages on friendster or facebook which are soaked with terms of endearments and redundant 'i love you' confessions to each other which makes me roll my eyes and belch in disgust. yeah we know you both love each other to bits but puh-leese do not pour them out in public. and to top this is public affection.hugs from the back, kisses all over, hands on places you can never imagine, irk me to the max. HOWEVER, seeing these people now fills me with jealousy. i envy them because they love each other to bits and they want the whole world to know it. i miss being affectionate. i'm not lacking affection per se, but i'm lacking the feeling of it. actions of affection aren't complete if it is without meaning and sincerity. i do not get the butterflies in my stomach anymore, nor does my heart beat fast. i miss biting my lip trying to stop the giggles from feeling ticklish. i'm not saying that i want to display my love publicly, but i want to feel that love being reciprocated. i do not want to feel void and empty. i want to be loved in return. sigh.